Change

[miladycarol]

newroticgirl pulled a couple of runes for me. Her readings are always poignant. This time she pulled the rune of constraint and the rune of self indicating I should examine the self-imposed rules and the rules placed upon me. This, I am doing.

I have many rules I've chosen for myself. I have made every effort to check in with myself and see how well those rules are still working for me. I liken it to choosing products. I spend a great deal of time reading the ingredients on every bottle of shampoo and choose only those who pass my criteria. Every once in a while, it's good to read those labels again to see if it still passes inspection. More than once, a product has changed its ingredients in non-favourable way. I need to continue to check whether what I'm doing is still working for me rather than just habitually still do it. I probably should do it more often. Still, I have made a habit of checking in on a lot of the rules I've made for myself in the past couple of years. I've changed quite a few of those old blue laws and I think it's working better for me.

As for the rules placed upon me, I've been looking at them, too. Some are totally beyond my control. Still, there are a few I've been carrying for years and I've decided to put them down for good or ill. I'm still waiting to see how those feel. I'm not sure I can ever grow past my food allergy, yet I've shifted my psychological hang-up associated with it. I may or may not ever change my physical reaction, but I'm happy to be working on letting go of my psychological responses to it.

In short, I'm working on me. I've decided that if it doesn't serve me and/or bring me joy, it is going under the microscope.

Comments

[thatgirly.livejournal.com]

Good luck!

[miladycarol.livejournal.com]

Thanks! And good luck to you on your NaNoWriMo this year!

[thatgirly.livejournal.com]

Thanks! It'll be a fun experiment!