The Morgana Report

I met sbloss for breakfast and coffee this morning. Lovely. I really enjoy my mornings with you! I would love to schedule another one for next week. How does Tuesday morning sound?

Afterward, I took Morgana to see a puppy P.T. She was predictably nervous yet carried herself with honour and bravery. My little hero! Erik found some old and some new muscular tension along her spine and some visceral issues around her small intestines. He worked on her in much the same way Mia (my myofascial therapist) works on me. When he managed to remind those muscles where they need to be she visibly twitched with the fresh flow of chi. She walked out of there a bit sore yet bright-eyed and alert. I took her with me to a couple of stores for errands while we were out in the world and she was excited and happy. When we returned home, she ran for the water bowl, grabbed some kibble and set about to explore everything like it was the first time. She is still so amazingly alert. I thought she'd be tired and want to nap after her full morning yet she has other plans. I think I'll wait until later to take her for a walk. I have a ballot to drop off today or tomorrow.

Have I mentioned how much I love that girl? I'm so proud of her. She brings me such joy. Everyone should have a Morgana in their lives because she is a blessing.

Change

newroticgirl pulled a couple of runes for me. Her readings are always poignant. This time she pulled the rune of constraint and the rune of self indicating I should examine the self-imposed rules and the rules placed upon me. This, I am doing.

I have many rules I've chosen for myself. I have made every effort to check in with myself and see how well those rules are still working for me. I liken it to choosing products. I spend a great deal of time reading the ingredients on every bottle of shampoo and choose only those who pass my criteria. Every once in a while, it's good to read those labels again to see if it still passes inspection. More than once, a product has changed its ingredients in non-favourable way. I need to continue to check whether what I'm doing is still working for me rather than just habitually still do it. I probably should do it more often. Still, I have made a habit of checking in on a lot of the rules I've made for myself in the past couple of years. I've changed quite a few of those old blue laws and I think it's working better for me.

As for the rules placed upon me, I've been looking at them, too. Some are totally beyond my control. Still, there are a few I've been carrying for years and I've decided to put them down for good or ill. I'm still waiting to see how those feel. I'm not sure I can ever grow past my food allergy, yet I've shifted my psychological hang-up associated with it. I may or may not ever change my physical reaction, but I'm happy to be working on letting go of my psychological responses to it.

In short, I'm working on me. I've decided that if it doesn't serve me and/or bring me joy, it is going under the microscope.